School, work,
There are various worlds in each of those lives
And there are definitely good waves as well as bad waves.
But, in the end, how well you ride that wave is what you're able to decide for yourself.

No matter what kind of sadness happens today,
You can make your own HAPPINESS tomorrow.
It makes no difference in the number of tears,

The amount of happiness is up to you.

-Rina Suzuki (Translated courtesy of SCANDAL-Heaven)

I've been thinking. Thoughts have been coming to mind, and trying to bubble their way up to my consciousness. 

Thoughts such as how to get yourself from A to B, how to motivate yourself to get up and improve from where you stand now, all of these 'life-improving' motivational things. 

A lot of these thoughts can be quite absorbing, and often just thinking about how it affects only you can leave you a little worse for wear. The way I see it, most of those thoughts are just beginnings of some positive movement and inspiration to others and yourself.

It'll start as an ember, then gain more and more fuel until it blazes brightly for all those surrounding it to see.

As the quote says above, whether it be inspiration or happiness that you choose to radiate from your life, it's entirely up to you to make it happen, and it all depends on the decisions you make. Not just for today, but for tomorrow as well.


What also comes into play is what sort of person you show to others. Are you the one who will take the time to open the door for complete strangers? Would you shrug off a donation stand because you didn't feel like approaching them? Do you hide your innermost doubts in order to fit in with your circles?

Or do you override all your fears and stand tall for others to take an example of you?

Whatever you choose to be can even be a mix of some of the qualities that were mentioned, or be entirely different after all.


I guess the important thing is that what you show to people is your truth.

It's a difficult word, that 'truth'.


Sometimes we hide it to protect the ones we care about. Sometimes we fear revealing it would alienate ourselves from those we wish to reach out to.
But what it actually stands for should never be hidden from view.

At least, to make things right anyway.


The first part of your truth is the literal meaning, that is the sometimes raw and unadulterated meaning/tone/feelings/messages/facts/expressions of life.

The second part is the values that you live by, and the things that guide you to make your every day choices. 


Now, there may be more parts to this than meets the eye, but for now, I think those two are the major parts. 

Showing your truth can be risky, even frightening. By the way I'm phrasing this, I'm sure it sounds a lot more juvenile than I seem to intend, but the meaning is different, of course. 

Now in the course of Over Thinking, I seem to be the Dean of it (I could probably write a thesis with the amount of thinking that goes on). Therefore, I can definitely recommend that you disregard most of what is unclear in those above paragraphs, because that was probably one thread that might not have needed to be said. 

In any case, "things have changed".

The first semester of University life is ending for me and honestly, I can see a brighter future in the midst. Not just because every day and everyone inspires me that what I can do isn't so scary any more, but because I'm thinking a little more healthy every day as well.

It feels like a really good thing, and sure, it may have its rocky moments, though I'm confident that I can continue to improve living and appreciating life as it is.

And yo, I'm still going to finish that Left 4 Dead project, don't you worry.

I've been learning to drive, thanks to friends who believe that I can, and definitely should.

And also it's a little far off now, but my birthday will be soon, in around two months.
I sure will get just a bit crazy and silly: I know that for sure.

Feeling on track is great. ^O^

Peace,

Atamarashi.