One word; utter awesomeness.

Woops, that was two. Oh well.

In any case, yesterday I got back from camp...

Which was totally awesome!

It was such a different set of experiences I will definitely highlight in my life so far.

So many challenges and memories will arise from it.

I've changed alot too; I've gotten presumably happier (mostly because of the few I admire and a new person in my life), of course slightly darkened my tan and become more of the person I want to be.

What was not strange at all was the fact that I did not miss my internet and computer habits one bit. I almost expected not to miss them.

There were several activities that were absolutely awesome; being that of Lost Island (muddy obstacle course [my favourite]), and others...

If you wanted to hear about that new person, I guess I can't say. But I will say that the one special girl I have in my heart, I feel a little more confident, etc... I really enjoy her company though.

I haven't found a proper song to describe what I feel with her...

But I guess Jason Mraz's song "If it kills me" is pretty much a bit of the story.

(Lyrics source = Lyrics Astraweb)

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me

Something is telling me there's not a lot I can do; there is anything, but that doesn't necessarily mean I should do those things.

At the second day of the three day camp, I saw and found the most picturesque scene or landscape in my life. There was an early sunset basking the lake and trees in a beautiful display of natural light with an incredibly lavish ambiance.

I just felt so compelled to take someone I cared about there....

In any case, I'll diverge into full details about the camp at a later stage.

Peace out and Fly On,

Razor Blayde